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Weekly Weigh-in: Week 6

Skipping two weeks of WW is never a good idea…

Gain/loss: + 1.0 pound

Total gain/loss: – 2.4 pounds

Things are clearly moving in the opposite direction I would like for them too, but I suppose only gaining one pound in three weeks of lackadaisical behavior isn’t the worst thing in the world. It isn’t the best either.

This week I’ve done really well with working out so I am definitely pleased with that. Yesterday morning I did what I call a Cardio-athlon — 20 minutes on the treadmill, the elliptical and the stairmaster for a total of 60 intense minutes of cardio.  Not gonna lie, I felt like a rock star.  Staying on each machine for only 20 minutes helps me to push myself for the entire time and keep my heart rate up. Sometimes when I get on the elliptical and set it for 45 minutes, I just don’t work that hard because it seems difficult to keep my intensity up on the elliptical for 45 long minutes. Changing things up works for my short workout attention span.

I also took my measurements yesterday morning.  I haven’t done this in a long time but I know that it is a great way to see changes in your body during a weight loss journey.  I made a new spreadsheet (my current obsession) for them and set calendar reminders every four weeks to re-measure.

Today’s meeting topic at WW was about tracking (i.e. writing down) what you eat. I suck at this. At best, I am a Mon-Wed tracker. Then I weigh-in Thursday morning and lose my mind completely until Sunday night. Not okay. I think I am crappy about tracking for two reasons: 1) Sheer laziness and 2) DENIAL.  If I track it, I have to admit how many points it really was and sometimes I just don’t want to know.  But not tracking is not working for me so my goal for the coming week is to track every day, even if I go over my allotted points by a million, I have to write it down.  I think tracking will help me be more honest with myself about what I’m actually consuming and why the scale isn’t going down right now.

How’s your week going? Any goals for the coming week?

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Weekly Weigh-in: Week 3

So, I didn’t go to WW this morning. Fail.  But I did get to spend last night slumber partying with my love Cousin J, who just moved back to Oklahoma from Louisiana. Woo hoo! She’s moving to T-town this fall and I couldn’t be happier. Last night I showed her around town a bit and treated her to some delicious Elote.  So no weigh-in. Alas, sometimes, that’s life.

In exactly, 8 days I will put on a swimsuit for the first time this year. Eep. I think that is excellent motivation to continue to work hard and eat well for the next week and to definitely make my weigh-in next Thursday! But additional accountability is always a good thing so I bring you my workout plan for the next week-ish:

Friday (PM): 45+ min cardio, Lower Body Weights, Abs

Saturday (AM): 45+ min cardio, Abs

Sunday (PM): 45+min cardio, Abs, Yoga video

Monday: (AM) – Cardio warm up, Upper Body Weights; (PM) – 45 minute Spin class

Tuesday: (AM) – 45+ min Cardio; (PM) – Stair climbing

Wednesday: (AM) – Cardio warm up, Lower Body Weights; (PM) – 45 minute Spin class

Thursday: (PM) – Stair climbing, 45+ min Cardio

Friday: (AM) Cardio warm up, Upper Body Weights

I know it looks semi-intense, but the two-a-days are temporary.  Although, I may try to incorporate them a few days a week post-Memorial Day weekend to prep for Miami. (T-minus 48 days!!!) And to give myself even more accountability, you can follow me on twitter (@QtrLifeConfused) where I’ll be tweeting about all of my workouts! I’m really looking forward to a restful, sun-filled (fingers crossed) Memorial Day Weekend. Now, I’ve just got to find a Target with the swimsuit I want and I’ll be ready to go!

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What does your workout schedule look like pre-Memorial Day? Do you have any fun plans?

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Weekly Weigh-In: Week 2

I can’t believe it has been a week since my last post.  I guess I haven’t been feeling very inspired lately. Thanks for hanging with me anyway. This week I worked on eating most of my points for breakfast/lunch/snacks and then having a much lighter dinner.  I think it went really well.  The results of this week’s WW weigh-in:

Weekly Gain/Loss:  – 1.6 pounds

Total Gain/Loss:  – 5.0 pounds

At WW, they like to recognize lots of milestones on the road to your goal weight — 5% of your weight lost, 10% of your weight lost, 16 weeks of membership, and every 5 pounds you lose.  For me these milestones make up mini-goals to aim for along the way. So today, I hit my first baby goal — 5 pounds down!

My 5 pound star! The picture was much better on my phone. Fail.

The topic at the WW meeting this week was people who support/don’t support your weight loss efforts.  The leader mentioned something about a lot people being closet WWers — i.e. they don’t tell their friends and/or family that they are on WW or trying to make healthy lifestyle changes.  I was in the closet for a really, really long time with my weight loss challenges so this really struck a chord with me.

I’ve been trying to lose weight off and on since I was 16.  I have tried almost everything you can try: WW, Body-for-Life, the Grapefruit Diet, simple calorie counting, weight loss pills, etc.  (For the record, my greatest success came while on WW in 2008 – I lost 25 pounds.)  I used to be really secretive about my attempts to lose weight.  I think there are several reasons for this including that when I was young I didn’t want anyone to know that I truly struggled with food.  As a 16/17-year-old athlete, you would like to think that worrying about what you were eating wouldn’t be a huge issue, but for me it was.  (Ah, what I wouldn’t give to go back to that 145-pound svelte volleyball player/cheerleader…) I felt embarrassed and I felt like if I admitted that I was trying to lose weight then I was also admitting that I was fat.

As I got older, pride started coming into play in a way as well.  I thought that if I pretended my size didn’t bother me and that if I didn’t act like I thought I looked bad, then no one else would be bothered or think that I looked overweight.  For a while, this seemed to work.  In the few times I did tell people how much I weighed they always seemed surprised and I prided myself on carrying my weight well.

But eventually, as I got bigger and bigger, these coping and defense mechanisms stopped working for me.  And somehow (although I honestly can’t recall how), I ended up here,  putting my weight loss struggle out there for the whole internet to see.  The funny thing is, it isn’t really the whole world who is aware of it because of this blog. It’s my friends.  It is the people who I hold the closest to my heart that I have hidden my struggle from for so long who now know how hard it is for me sometimes.

The beautiful part is that by telling people how much being overweight sucks and how much I want to feel better physically and emotionally, I gave my friends the opportunity to show me love and support.  By sharing some of my most secret feelings, I have deepened my relationships and learned to appreciate how much the people who love me actually love me.  My family has always supported my weight loss efforts but now I have an even broader network of people who are willing to openly celebrate my successes and share in my struggles and split a salad with me after spin class.  I think that some/most of my friends have probably known for a long time that I was unhappy with my weight on some level, but now we can talk about it.  Now, they can help me in ways that I wasn’t open to before because I didn’t want to talk about it.  Being closed-off about my weight shut out my potentially biggest support base.

If I could go back maybe I would have shared more sooner, but maybe I wouldn’t have.  It took me ten years to get to this place and as difficult as it has been, it was also an important part of my process.  So today, I want to thank my friends for their continued love, support and encouragement.  You guys rock my world every day.

Is it difficult for you to open up to people about your weight struggles?  Who do you turn to for support?

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Weekly Weigh-In: Week 1

Okay, I know technically this should be my week 2 but last week as a gigantic catastrophe which I will explain shortly. So this morning, I hit up my WW meeting for the first time since my April restart. And (drum roll please….) things went well!

Weekly Gain/Loss:  – 3.4 pounds

Total Gain/Loss:  – 3.4 pounds

Thank goodness! I’d love to say that this was the result of two weeks of diligence and hard work, but that would totally be a lie.  Last Tuesday Mom QLC took a spill in her parking garage at work and shattered both wrists.  No bueno.  So Tuesday night was spent at the hospital.  And while she was in surgery, I started feeling badly.  By Wednesday morning feeling badly was a full-blown stomach virus that took about five days to run its course. I was les miserables.  I spent the early parts of this week working to get back to normal and trying to not gain back all of the weight I lost from being sick. I think it went pretty well actually.

In other news:

1) I registered for the Tour de Cure with fellow bloggers, Fat Ass to Fit Ass and Miss PR.  Tour de Cure is an annual cycling event raising money for the American Diabetes Association.  The event is June 4th and I have signed up to ride 25 miles. If you’re interested in supporting me/Team Fat Ass, click here! (And thanks!)

2)  Due to Mom QLC’s significant injuries, she won’t be able to ride a bike for a while. As a result, the fam decided to forgo our planned Freewheel trip this year. I’m kind of bummed, but I felt ill-prepared at this point so maybe it will be for the best. I can get my cycling fill in during the Tour de Cure and the MS 150 (Team Red Lantern Cycling is back in action!).

Our hotel - The Marriott South Beach

3) Only 62 days until Miami! I seriously cannot wait for this trip. I have countdown calendars at work and at home.  I don’t think I’ve been on a real vacation (with a plane and a beach and more than a long weekend) since my post-bar Mexico trip with Miss Dubs.  So far the trip has served as excellent motivation for eating well and exercising.  I want to feel good while I am there. I don’t want to worry about feeling super self-conscious.  It will be really nice to just enjoy myself knowing that I worked hard to look and feel the best I possibly could while I am there.

My goals for the coming week are to finally get my life back, haha. Being sick and helping take care of my mom got me all kinds of off kilter.  I’m ready to make a menu and go to the grocery store and be a little bit normal.  Miss PoliSci and I are also discussing signing up for a Couch-to-5k program with a local running store for some additional accountability.  I’ve started the program twice but for a variety of reasons (cough, excuses, cough) haven’t kept up with it. I would like to get my running legs back under me since it is the easiest way for me to workout at the lake in the summer time.

What goals are you working on this week? How are you preparing for shorts/swimsuit weather and summer trips?

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Starting Over…Again…(aka Week 0)

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I ventured back to WW this morning for the first time since January. Eeep.  I went ahead and reset myself with today’s date and weight as my starting point.  I honestly cannot tell you how many times I’ve started and re-started WW in the last 6 years.  I am probably not the best endorsement for the program, but really, I believe WW works.  The problem arises when I don’t work.  I’m trying really hard to remedy that problem, for a myriad of reasons, including but not limited to:

1) Freewheel:  We leave in 7 weeks (holy crap) for our week-long bike trek across the State of Oklahoma.  I know I will have more fun and be able to ride longer and faster if I lose some weight between now and then. Must get it together. Oh, and get in some serious training rides!

2) Miami:  I leave in 76 days (whoop!) for a 4-day girls trip to South Beach. I could not be more excited to get out-of-town and feel the sand beneath my feet.  I think as we get older it is really important to have trips/events on the calendar so there are things to look forward to.  When all I can see for my future is the same thing day in and day out, I get completely freaked.

3) Class Reunion:  This is much farther off (a little more than a year), but makes for a great long-term goal.  While Miss PoliSci, Miss Rose, Mrs. Bookworm and I are still debating our attendance, I want to be prepared to attend should we decide to do so.  And I want to feel good about myself when I get there.

I’ve also been really inspired lately by my favorite contestant on this season of the Biggest Loser, Hannah.  For whatever reason, I really relate to her and she has become such a rock star on the show.  You can tell how much her personality has changed and how confident she feels now.  I totally want that.  So I am officially back on the wagon, where I’d really like to stay…for good.

In order to firm up my commitment and to gain some additional accountability, I decided to share my short-term goal here: 20 pounds before by Miami!  I think it is totally doable, if I am consistent, which is always my biggest struggle.

What goals are you currently working on? How do you stay consistent in your eating/exercise plans?

Coming Attractions: Photos of the vegetable garden planted by Mrs. BW and myself, 101 in 1001 and the clothes I want to wear in Miami!

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Weekly Weigh-In: Getting Back to “Normal”

I feel like it was best said here, “The snow is sucking my will to live.”  Seriously.  Things have been just completely out of whack since the great blizzard of last week.  I was homebound for several days and then depending on rides from lots of wonderful friends/family until Tuesday evening when I FINALLY got my car back from getting new tires. Woot woot! And then it snowed AGAIN. Ri-freaking-diculous.

I have felt totally off this week, even though I’ve been back to my regular work schedule.  Since I didn’t have a car over the weekend I didn’t do my regular grocery shopping or make a menu.  I’ve been to the gym some but not enough.  I have been having a horribly difficult time getting out of bed in the mornings for work because it is painfully cold outside. I mean, you guys probably know all of this because you are going through it too.

I did not attend my WW meeting this morning. FAIL.  But I logged on and tracked my food so that’s the first good step of my WW week (which runs Thurs to Wed). I plan to get my life back this week. Gym. Spin. Menu. Vegetables. Bring it on.  It doesn’t hurt that the forecast is calling for balmy weather and sunshine next week!

Looking forward to getting back to the grind and feeling more like myself — well, a lighter version of myself that is. How’d you fare during the winter weather? Did being homebound mess up your usual routine as badly as it messed up mine?

 

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Weekly Weigh-In: Week 3

As anticipated, this week’s weigh-in didn’t go that well.  I was honestly recovering fairly well Mon-Wed from last weekend’s over-indulgence, but then I went to book club last night.  And I had a fantastic time.  And I ate way too much delicious food — veggie curry, naan, homemade eggplant dip and hummus, and honey-poached-pear-cake-with-white-chocolate-pistachio icing. Seriously.  I realize I should have and could have eaten smaller portions of everything, but well, I just didn’t.  So without further ado:

Weekly +/-: + 1.9 lbs

Total +/-: – 2.0 lbs

I feel pretty lame about it, but really at this point all I can do is move forward.  When I logged into WW online to log my weight it told me this:

“Look back at this week and see what you might be able to change; then let go of what you can’t. The best thing to do is focus on is making this coming week a success.”

Although I find some of the WW emoticons and encouragements a little cheesy most of the time, I thought this was really good advice.  I knew I probably wouldn’t have a great weigh-in this week and I think I used that as a crutch to not be as diligent at book club as I should have been.  I mean, hey, I’m going to gain tomorrow anyway so this extra piece of naan really isn’t a big deal, right? Um, wrong. And here’s why:

It is a big deal because I reverted to past bad behavior.  It is a big deal because I didn’t forgive myself for what I ate last weekend; instead I used it as a reason to wallow.  I didn’t let go of the things I couldn’t change and move on to what I could do to be successful.  And now it is time to do just that.

Things I can change this coming week:

1.  Eating at home for the weekend.  Okay, don’t get crazy, I probably won’t eat every weekend meal at home, but I can at least schedule a few.  I’m concert-bound on Saturday night with the fabulous Miss PR, and instead of going out to eat before the show we’re going to whip up something fabulous and healthy together!

2.  Getting in a Sunday workout.  Last Sunday I laid on the couch for like 10 hours. I’m not kidding.  This week I would like to hit up the Sunday afternoon spin class to sweat out the weekend and get the week off to a good start.

3.  Spending more time at home.  Generally, I am busier towards the end of the month.  The past two weeks have really been no exception.  Next week I have very little scheduled on the weeknights so I am looking forward to eating at home. With my measuring cups/spoons.  Come to think of it, I really should have asked for a measuring cup last night.  Let’s come back to this…

Things I need to let go of:

1.  Today’s weigh-in.  I gained weight.  It happened. I cannot change it but I can do the work to make things different on the scale next week.

2.  Everything I ate last Sunday.  It is haunting me.

About those measuring cups, I really wasn’t kidding.  Portion control is crucial to the WW program and really to our health in general.  I am often guilty of over-eating healthy foods, which is almost as bad as eating things that aren’t healthy because too much is too much.  I’ve also found that when I measure out a cup of something, like couscous, I see that it really is a lot of food.  I think as a visual eater it is important for me to see that.  So bust out your measuring cups/spoons this week and see if you’re eating the correct portions of your favorite foods. I dare ya.

Something I did this week that I am proud of was actually thawing out some of the soups I made and froze a couple of weeks ago.  I freeze stuff all the time.  And then I pull it out of the freezer, get grossed out and throw it away, Tupperware and all.  I know, crazy wasteful. And pretty stupid.  So this week I revisited the Black Bean Soup and the Broccoli-Cheese-Sausage-Potato Soup, which meant I did almost no cooking.  Unfortunately, I didn’t think the Black Bean Soup was as good after spending two weeks in the freezer.  The texture of the carrots and celery was kind of funky but it was still edible.  But the BCSP Soup was great!

What can you change from last week to next week that will help you achieve your goals?  What do you need to let go of?

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